Something bad and something good....

Lets get the crappy stuff out of the way first...

I am 19dpo. No period, no BFP. So, clearly, either my ovulation date was off, or something happened and fertility friend lied to me about actually ovulating. There is no way that I could still be testing negative. So now I'm just waiting for AF to get here. I will wait another week and see what happens. This sucks. Last cycle was a 46 day cycle but I ovulated WAY late. This time I O'd on cd15 or so FF says....
So now I just wait it out. The waiting sucks. Going to cycle 5 sucks. Why do we all go into this knowing that it could take a while but hoping that were one of the few that gets KU in the first couple cycles? It only leads to disappointment.


Moving on to something happy. I woke up to a wonderful thing this morning. As you can see from previous pictures, I plated sunflowers about 10 weeks ago. Started them from seeds. Waited and waited and waited for actual flowers. Today I walked out of my house, and saw these:



I have actual sunflowers. Isn't is strange how one is almost orange and the other is bright yellow?
Now, I'm on the lookout for my tomatoes!

Sheesh...

Can I catch a break?
16dpo and no AF. I didnt test, I figure I'll just wait 3-4 more days and see what happens. I did however, wake up sick. Im wondering if getting sick delayed AF. My body hurts, I have a fever, and I cant breathe through my nose.
And, Im working.
What fun!

15dpo and still nothing

No AF, no BFP.
My boobs hurt so bad I wish I could cut them off. My back aches enough that I need a heating pad every night. Im exhausted.
Unfortunately, with these symptoms, it could go either way.
But at 15dpo I would hope that if I wasnt getting a BFP that AF would just hurry up and rear her ugly head so I can move past this, and go on to cycle 5.

46

I had a 46 day cycle....
At least I finally got AF. I was starting to worry. My cycles have been WAY wacky since coming off BC. first cycle was 24 days, second cycle was 36 days this cycle was 46 days....It better NOT keep getting longer and longer. The only thing keeping me sane is that according to FF I did in fact ovulate- should have double checked that with an OPK but didnt this time....
So, if I ovulated AND eventually did get AF, I have to consider my body "normal" for now. If this wacky cycle thing continues I will have a chit chat with my dr.