What's your temp today?

My husband now asks me this every morning. Despite asking me to stop charting 2 cycles ago because he thought I was obsessing. Now who's obsessing? The conversation usually goes something like
"What's your temp today?"
::me, groggy:: "96.98."
"Whats that mean"
"I don't know sweetheart. Its not good its not bad."
"Well, shouldn't it be going up? Its down .14 from yesterday"
"Not that big of a deal sweetheart"
"Oh, well.. does it say you ovulated yet?"
"Nope."
"Well when will you know?"
"When it puts big red lines across it honey. I'll let you know, I promise."

And I'M the one that was obsessive. Right.

19 DPO

I am now 19 dpo, with temps increasing, and still above the coverline. No AF, and a BFN this morning. WTF?

So far, I have thrown up every day for the last 2 weeks, Im exhausted, nausious all day, and cramping low. I have no idea whats wrong with my body.

My chart is not helping my phantom symptoms...

So, for the last 10 days or so, my boobs have been killing me, I am literally throwing up almost everyday and on the verge of it most of the day, I am moody, I am tired, and of course my mind plays tricks on me. I have been schooled enough to understand that these are simply phantom symptoms. When you WANT to be pregnant, every single thing that you feel that is outside of "normal" for you, will lead you to believe you are pregnant.

My chart does not help this theory...take a look....

From last cycles chart to this one.....this looks beautiful. According to this, I am sitting at 17 dpo. With no sign of AF. At all. My cycles have been a bit irregular since coming off of BC with one of my cycles being 36 days and another being 24 days. Right now I am sitting at 37 days. Cant draw a conclusion based on that. Last cycle my temps were ALL over the place. Up, down, up down. Awful. Look at my chart now. After O, not a single temp below coverline. So I did what any logical girl would do.

I tested.

What a surprise.

BFN.

Nothing.

Not even a slight hint of a line.

At 17 dpo.

If by Monday there is still no AF, and still getting BFN's, I am calling my dr. Sigh...this is so frustrating.

I feel like I dont have the right to complain because this is really just the 3rd cycle. There are girls who are in cycles 9,13,18 and are still being "tricked" every month. I didn't post on the bump about it because I am still so "new" to the waiting game. I feel for the girls who go through this month after month after month. It makes me not feel sorry for myself at all. These women spend months getting their timing right, using OPK's, drinking green tea, eating pineapple core. Only to be disappointed month after month. Or worse. Finally get pregnant, and then m/c. I feel for them.

I just wonder if that's going to be me. Did the years and years of being on the depo shot plague me into being one of the ones that has to wait a year or longer? Will I be one of the girls sitting at cycle 18 listening to some girl complain that she didn't get pregnant on her first cycle? God, how heart wrenching that must feel.

In any case- as it stands right now, I know absolutely nothing other than the fact that I am 17 dpo with a beautiful chart, yucky phantom symptoms, and no AF.

Just another day in my life!

Vent over, thanks for listening.

Another day in the life..

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I started doing the 30 Day Shred workout video by Jillian Michael's last weekend. Holy Cow. I want to kiss her and throat punch her at the same time. She's rough. But I love the video. It's getting a little easier. After the first day, I felt like I had been hit by a truck. After doing it yesterday my body is slightly sore, but barely noticeable. I think I'm getting the hang of this! I need to lose 20 pounds by Katie's wedding on the 19th of September. I think that's a reasonable goal. I think I can do it! After this 30 days, I will move onto one of Jillian's harder videos. Until Then, I'll stick to struggling with this one!



In other news. I've been charting this month. I've been really good about taking my temps, and logging everything it tells me to. I've been chart stalking some other girls on the bump board and I've noticed 2 things about my own. 1)My temps seem to be WAY higher than most peoples. 2)My temps are all over the place! No consistency! But, I think a big part of that is the wearing off of depo provera. I'm bound to have wacky cycles in the beginning. I don't keep a link of my chart in my siggy on the board yet, simply because of how wacky it is. Once it gets a little more normal I probably will. For those of you who understand the charting- here's mine so far for this cycle.


See what I mean? Temps, all over the place. I didn't chart the cramps at the beginning of the month, because I knew it had nothing to do with the cycle. Once the stopped for a couple weeks, then I had a day of them, I logged it.
Feel free to leave any comments about my chart, or life, as you see fit!